Friday, 7 November 2014

Trying to tip the 'can't do' into 'can do'

Life is going on.

For some of us.

My family has had two major losses this year.

Death is instructive. There's the dealing of it in terms of practical tasks, and there's the missing someone and wondering if you can still put one foot in front of the other, and why there is no river of tears and a drowned pillow every morning.

You have to cope with your own feelings and still help others with their feelings.

And feelings are shape-shifters. One time they are this and another, that.

But you are learning how to deal with the shape of your life after.

Day by day

Does anyone know how to do it?

I can't do it. But I must, I will and I can.

And, what helps, is concentrating on the idea that I'm going to write a book about home education.
Lots of lovely research.

Lots of thinking.

And a nice feeling.


2 comments:

  1. I'm so sorry, Danae. That sounds like an incredibly hard year. Grief is such a long process - so long and complicated, in fact, that I think no one who hasn't gone through it can truly understand.

    Best wishes to you and your family.

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    1. Thanks, Deb. Yes, it has been tough, and grief is, as you say, long and complicated. Someone asked about my dog yesterday - she didn't know he had died - and I nearly burst into tears. But, at least, I had the immense gift of his companionship and love for so many years. Thanks, again.

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